Transcribed from the 1906 Caradoc Press edition by David Price, email

ccx074@pglaf.org



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                             SONNETS FROM THE

                                PORTUGUESE





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                                    BY

                                ELIZABETH

                             BARRETT BROWNING



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                      THE CARADOC PRESS BEDFORD PARK

                   CHISWICK LONDON             MDCCCCVI









INDEX OF FIRST LINES



          I  I thought once how Theocritus had sung

         II  But only three in all God’s universe

        III  Unlike are we, unlike, O princely Heart!

         IV  Thou hast thy calling to some palace-floor

          V  I lift my heavy heart up solemnly

         VI  Go from me.  Yet I feel that I shall stand

        VII  The face of all the world is changed, I think

       VIII  What can I give thee back, O liberal

         IX  Can it be right to give what I can give?

          X  Yet, love, mere love, is beautiful indeed

         XI  And therefore if to love can be desert

        XII  Indeed this very love which is my boast

       XIII  And wilt thou have me fashion into speech

        XIV  If thou must love me, let it be for nought

         XV  Accuse me not, beseech thee, that I wear

        XVI  And yet, because thou overcomest so

       XVII  My poet thou canst touch on all the notes

      XVIII  I never gave a lock of hair away

        XIX  The soul’s Rialto hath its merchandize

         XX  Beloved, my beloved, when I think

        XXI  Say over again, and yet once over again

       XXII  When our two souls stand up erect and strong

      XXIII  Is it indeed so?  If I lay here dead

       XXIV  Let the world’s sharpness like a clasping knife

        XXV  A heavy heart, Beloved, have I borne

       XXVI  I lived with visions for my company

      XXVII  My own Beloved, who hast lifted me

     XXVIII  My letters! all dead paper, mute and white!

       XXIX  I think of thee!—my thoughts do twine and bud

        XXX  I see thine image through my tears to-night

       XXXI  Thou comest! all is said without a word

      XXXII  The first time that the sun rose on thine oath

     XXXIII  Yes, call me by my pet-name! let me hear

      XXXIV  With the same heart, I said, I’ll answer thee

       XXXV  If I leave all for thee, wilt thou exchange

      XXXVI  When we met first and loved, I did not build

     XXXVII  Pardon, oh, pardon, that my soul should make

    XXXVIII  First time he kissed me, he but only kissed

      XXXIX  Because thou hast the power and own’st the grace

         XL  Oh, yes! they love through all this world of ours!

        XLI  I thank all who have loved me in their hearts

       XLII  My future will not copy fair my past

      XLIII  How do I love thee?  Let me count the ways

       XLIV  Beloved, thou hast brought me many flowers









I





   I thought once how Theocritus had sung

   Of the sweet years, the dear and wished-for years,

   Who each one in a gracious hand appears

   To bear a gift for mortals, old or young:

   And, as I mused it in his antique tongue,

   I saw, in gradual vision through my tears,

   The sweet, sad years, the melancholy years,

   Those of my own life, who by turns had flung

   A shadow across me.  Straightway I was ’ware,

   So weeping, how a mystic Shape did move

   Behind me, and drew me backward by the hair;

   And a voice said in mastery, while I strove,—

   “Guess now who holds thee!”—“Death,” I said, But, there,

   The silver answer rang, “Not Death, but Love.”









II





   But only three in all God’s universe

   Have heard this word thou hast said,—Himself, beside

   Thee speaking, and me listening! and replied

   One of us . . . that was God, . . . and laid the curse

   So darkly on my eyelids, as to amerce

   My sight from seeing thee,—that if I had died,

   The death-weights, placed there, would have signified

   Less absolute exclusion.  “Nay” is worse

   From God than from all others, O my friend!

   Men could not part us with their worldly jars,

   Nor the seas change us, nor the tempests bend;

   Our hands would touch for all the mountain-bars:

   And, heaven being rolled between us at the end,

   We should but vow the faster for the stars.









III





   Unlike are we, unlike, O princely Heart!

   Unlike our uses and our destinies.

   Our ministering two angels look surprise

   On one another, as they strike athwart

   Their wings in passing.  Thou, bethink thee, art

   A guest for queens to social pageantries,

   With gages from a hundred brighter eyes

   Than tears even can make mine, to play thy part

   Of chief musician.  What hast thou to do

   With looking from the lattice-lights at me,

   A poor, tired, wandering singer, singing through

   The dark, and leaning up a cypress tree?

   The chrism is on thine head,—on mine, the dew,—

   And Death must dig the level where these agree.









IV





   Thou hast thy calling to some palace-floor,

   Most gracious singer of high poems! where

   The dancers will break footing, from the care

   Of watching up thy pregnant lips for more.

   And dost thou lift this house’s latch too poor

   For hand of thine? and canst thou think and bear

   To let thy music drop here unaware

   In folds of golden fulness at my door?

   Look up and see the casement broken in,

   The bats and owlets builders in the roof!

   My cricket chirps against thy mandolin.

   Hush, call no echo up in further proof

   Of desolation! there’s a voice within

   That weeps . . . as thou must sing . . . alone, aloof.









V





   I lift my heavy heart up solemnly,

   As once Electra her sepulchral urn,

   And, looking in thine eyes, I over-turn

   The ashes at thy feet.  Behold and see

   What a great heap of grief lay hid in me,

   And how the red wild sparkles dimly burn

   Through the ashen greyness.  If thy foot in scorn

   Could tread them out to darkness utterly,

   It might be well perhaps.  But if instead

   Thou wait beside me for the wind to blow

   The grey dust up, . . . those laurels on thine head,

   O my Belovëd, will not shield thee so,

   That none of all the fires shall scorch and shred

   The hair beneath.  Stand further off then! go!









VI





   Go from me.  Yet I feel that I shall stand

   Henceforward in thy shadow.  Nevermore

   Alone upon the threshold of my door

   Of individual life, I shall command

   The uses of my soul, nor lift my hand

   Serenely in the sunshine as before,

   Without the sense of that which I forbore—

   Thy touch upon the palm.  The widest land

   Doom takes to part us, leaves thy heart in mine

   With pulses that beat double.  What I do

   And what I dream include thee, as the wine

   Must taste of its own grapes.  And when I sue

   God for myself, He hears that name of thine,

   And sees within my eyes the tears of two.









VII





   The face of all the world is changed, I think,

   Since first I heard the footsteps of thy soul

   Move still, oh, still, beside me, as they stole

   Betwixt me and the dreadful outer brink

   Of obvious death, where I, who thought to sink,

   Was caught up into love, and taught the whole

   Of life in a new rhythm.  The cup of dole

   God gave for baptism, I am fain to drink,

   And praise its sweetness, Sweet, with thee anear.

   The names of country, heaven, are changed away

   For where thou art or shalt be, there or here;

   And this . . . this lute and song . . . loved yesterday,

   (The singing angels know) are only dear

   Because thy name moves right in what they say.









VIII





   What can I give thee back, O liberal

   And princely giver, who hast brought the gold

   And purple of thine heart, unstained, untold,

   And laid them on the outside of the wall

   For such as I to take or leave withal,

   In unexpected largesse? am I cold,

   Ungrateful, that for these most manifold

   High gifts, I render nothing back at all?

   Not so; not cold,—but very poor instead.

   Ask God who knows.  For frequent tears have run

   The colours from my life, and left so dead

   And pale a stuff, it were not fitly done

   To give the same as pillow to thy head.

   Go farther! let it serve to trample on.









IX





   Can it be right to give what I can give?

   To let thee sit beneath the fall of tears

   As salt as mine, and hear the sighing years

   Re-sighing on my lips renunciative

   Through those infrequent smiles which fail to live

   For all thy adjurations?  O my fears,

   That this can scarce be right!  We are not peers

   So to be lovers; and I own, and grieve,

   That givers of such gifts as mine are, must

   Be counted with the ungenerous.  Out, alas!

   I will not soil thy purple with my dust,

   Nor breathe my poison on thy Venice-glass,

   Nor give thee any love—which were unjust.

   Beloved, I only love thee! let it pass.









X





   Yet, love, mere love, is beautiful indeed

   And worthy of acceptation.  Fire is bright,

   Let temple burn, or flax; an equal light

   Leaps in the flame from cedar-plank or weed:

   And love is fire.  And when I say at need

   I love thee . . . mark! . . . I love thee—in thy sight

   I stand transfigured, glorified aright,

   With conscience of the new rays that proceed

   Out of my face toward thine.  There’s nothing low

   In love, when love the lowest: meanest creatures

   Who love God, God accepts while loving so.

   And what I feel, across the inferior features

   Of what I am, doth flash itself, and show

   How that great work of Love enhances Nature’s.









XI





   And therefore if to love can be desert,

   I am not all unworthy.  Cheeks as pale

   As these you see, and trembling knees that fail

   To bear the burden of a heavy heart,—

   This weary minstrel-life that once was girt

   To climb Aornus, and can scarce avail

   To pipe now ’gainst the valley nightingale

   A melancholy music,—why advert

   To these things?  O Belovëd, it is plain

   I am not of thy worth nor for thy place!

   And yet, because I love thee, I obtain

   From that same love this vindicating grace

   To live on still in love, and yet in vain,—

   To bless thee, yet renounce thee to thy face.









XII





   Indeed this very love which is my boast,

   And which, when rising up from breast to brow,

   Doth crown me with a ruby large enow

   To draw men’s eyes and prove the inner cost,—

   This love even, all my worth, to the uttermost,

   I should not love withal, unless that thou

   Hadst set me an example, shown me how,

   When first thine earnest eyes with mine were crossed,

   And love called love.  And thus, I cannot speak

   Of love even, as a good thing of my own:

   Thy soul hath snatched up mine all faint and weak,

   And placed it by thee on a golden throne,—

   And that I love (O soul, we must be meek!)

   Is by thee only, whom I love alone.









XIII





   And wilt thou have me fashion into speech

   The love I bear thee, finding words enough,

   And hold the torch out, while the winds are rough,

   Between our faces, to cast light on each?—

   I drop it at thy feet.  I cannot teach

   My hand to hold my spirits so far off

   From myself—me—that I should bring thee proof

   In words, of love hid in me out of reach.

   Nay, let the silence of my womanhood

   Commend my woman-love to thy belief,—

   Seeing that I stand unwon, however wooed,

   And rend the garment of my life, in brief,

   By a most dauntless, voiceless fortitude,

   Lest one touch of this heart convey its grief.









XIV





   If thou must love me, let it be for nought

   Except for love’s sake only.  Do not say

   “I love her for her smile—her look—her way

   Of speaking gently,—for a trick of thought

   That falls in well with mine, and certes brought

   A sense of pleasant ease on such a day”—

   For these things in themselves, Belovëd, may

   Be changed, or change for thee,—and love, so wrought,

   May be unwrought so.  Neither love me for

   Thine own dear pity’s wiping my cheeks dry,—

   A creature might forget to weep, who bore

   Thy comfort long, and lose thy love thereby!

   But love me for love’s sake, that evermore

   Thou may’st love on, through love’s eternity.









XV





   Accuse me not, beseech thee, that I wear

   Too calm and sad a face in front of thine;

   For we two look two ways, and cannot shine

   With the same sunlight on our brow and hair.

   On me thou lookest with no doubting care,

   As on a bee shut in a crystalline;

   Since sorrow hath shut me safe in love’s divine,

   And to spread wing and fly in the outer air

   Were most impossible failure, if I strove

   To fail so.  But I look on thee—on thee—

   Beholding, besides love, the end of love,

   Hearing oblivion beyond memory;

   As one who sits and gazes from above,

   Over the rivers to the bitter sea.









XVI





   And yet, because thou overcomest so,

   Because thou art more noble and like a king,

   Thou canst prevail against my fears and fling

   Thy purple round me, till my heart shall grow

   Too close against thine heart henceforth to know

   How it shook when alone.  Why, conquering

   May prove as lordly and complete a thing

   In lifting upward, as in crushing low!

   And as a vanquished soldier yields his sword

   To one who lifts him from the bloody earth,

   Even so, Belovëd, I at last record,

   Here ends my strife.  If thou invite me forth,

   I rise above abasement at the word.

   Make thy love larger to enlarge my worth!









XVII





   My poet, thou canst touch on all the notes

   God set between His After and Before,

   And strike up and strike off the general roar

   Of the rushing worlds a melody that floats

   In a serene air purely.  Antidotes

   Of medicated music, answering for

   Mankind’s forlornest uses, thou canst pour

   From thence into their ears.  God’s will devotes

   Thine to such ends, and mine to wait on thine.

   How, Dearest, wilt thou have me for most use?

   A hope, to sing by gladly? or a fine

   Sad memory, with thy songs to interfuse?

   A shade, in which to sing—of palm or pine?

   A grave, on which to rest from singing?  Choose.









XVIII





   I never gave a lock of hair away

   To a man, Dearest, except this to thee,

   Which now upon my fingers thoughtfully

   I ring out to the full brown length and say

   “Take it.”  My day of youth went yesterday;

   My hair no longer bounds to my foot’s glee,

   Nor plant I it from rose- or myrtle-tree,

   As girls do, any more: it only may

   Now shade on two pale cheeks the mark of tears,

   Taught drooping from the head that hangs aside

   Through sorrow’s trick.  I thought the funeral-shears

   Would take this first, but Love is justified,—

   Take it thou,—finding pure, from all those years,

   The kiss my mother left here when she died.









XIX





   The soul’s Rialto hath its merchandize;

   I barter curl for curl upon that mart,

   And from my poet’s forehead to my heart

   Receive this lock which outweighs argosies,—

   As purply black, as erst to Pindar’s eyes

   The dim purpureal tresses gloomed athwart

   The nine white Muse-brows.  For this counterpart, . . .

   The bay crown’s shade, Belovëd, I surmise,

   Still lingers on thy curl, it is so black!

   Thus, with a fillet of smooth-kissing breath,

   I tie the shadows safe from gliding back,

   And lay the gift where nothing hindereth;

   Here on my heart, as on thy brow, to lack

   No natural heat till mine grows cold in death.









XX





   Belovëd, my Belovëd, when I think

   That thou wast in the world a year ago,

   What time I sat alone here in the snow

   And saw no footprint, heard the silence sink

   No moment at thy voice, but, link by link,

   Went counting all my chains as if that so

   They never could fall off at any blow

   Struck by thy possible hand,—why, thus I drink

   Of life’s great cup of wonder!  Wonderful,

   Never to feel thee thrill the day or night

   With personal act or speech,—nor ever cull

   Some prescience of thee with the blossoms white

   Thou sawest growing!  Atheists are as dull,

   Who cannot guess God’s presence out of sight.









XXI





   Say over again, and yet once over again,

   That thou dost love me.  Though the word repeated

   Should seem a “cuckoo-song,” as thou dost treat it,

   Remember, never to the hill or plain,

   Valley and wood, without her cuckoo-strain

   Comes the fresh Spring in all her green completed.

   Belovëd, I, amid the darkness greeted

   By a doubtful spirit-voice, in that doubt’s pain

   Cry, “Speak once more—thou lovest!”  Who can fear

   Too many stars, though each in heaven shall roll,

   Too many flowers, though each shall crown the year?

   Say thou dost love me, love me, love me—toll

   The silver iterance!—only minding, Dear,

   To love me also in silence with thy soul.









XXII





   When our two souls stand up erect and strong,

   Face to face, silent, drawing nigh and nigher,

   Until the lengthening wings break into fire

   At either curvëd point,—what bitter wrong

   Can the earth do to us, that we should not long

   Be here contented?  Think!  In mounting higher,

   The angels would press on us and aspire

   To drop some golden orb of perfect song

   Into our deep, dear silence.  Let us stay

   Rather on earth, Belovëd,—where the unfit

   Contrarious moods of men recoil away

   And isolate pure spirits, and permit

   A place to stand and love in for a day,

   With darkness and the death-hour rounding it.









XXIII





   Is it indeed so?  If I lay here dead,

   Wouldst thou miss any life in losing mine?

   And would the sun for thee more coldly shine

   Because of grave-damps falling round my head?

   I marvelled, my Belovëd, when I read

   Thy thought so in the letter.  I am thine—

   But . . . so much to thee?  Can I pour thy wine

   While my hands tremble?  Then my soul, instead

   Of dreams of death, resumes life’s lower range.

   Then, love me, Love! look on me—breathe on me!

   As brighter ladies do not count it strange,

   For love, to give up acres and degree,

   I yield the grave for thy sake, and exchange

   My near sweet view of heaven, for earth with thee!









XXIV





   Let the world’s sharpness like a clasping knife

   Shut in upon itself and do no harm

   In this close hand of Love, now soft and warm,

   And let us hear no sound of human strife

   After the click of the shutting.  Life to life—

   I lean upon thee, Dear, without alarm,

   And feel as safe as guarded by a charm

   Against the stab of worldlings, who if rife

   Are weak to injure.  Very whitely still

   The lilies of our lives may reassure

   Their blossoms from their roots, accessible

   Alone to heavenly dews that drop not fewer;

   Growing straight, out of man’s reach, on the hill.

   God only, who made us rich, can make us poor.









XXV





   A heavy heart, Belovëd, have I borne

   From year to year until I saw thy face,

   And sorrow after sorrow took the place

   Of all those natural joys as lightly worn

   As the stringed pearls, each lifted in its turn

   By a beating heart at dance-time.  Hopes apace

   Were changed to long despairs, till God’s own grace

   Could scarcely lift above the world forlorn

   My heavy heart.  Then thou didst bid me bring

   And let it drop adown thy calmly great

   Deep being!  Fast it sinketh, as a thing

   Which its own nature does precipitate,

   While thine doth close above it, mediating

   Betwixt the stars and the unaccomplished fate.









XXVI





   I lived with visions for my company

   Instead of men and women, years ago,

   And found them gentle mates, nor thought to know

   A sweeter music than they played to me.

   But soon their trailing purple was not free

   Of this world’s dust, their lutes did silent grow,

   And I myself grew faint and blind below

   Their vanishing eyes.  Then thou didst come—to be,

   Belovëd, what they seemed.  Their shining fronts,

   Their songs, their splendours, (better, yet the same,

   As river-water hallowed into fonts)

   Met in thee, and from out thee overcame

   My soul with satisfaction of all wants:

   Because God’s gifts put man’s best dreams to shame.









XXVII





   My own Belovëd, who hast lifted me

   From this drear flat of earth where I was thrown,

   And, in betwixt the languid ringlets, blown

   A life-breath, till the forehead hopefully

   Shines out again, as all the angels see,

   Before thy saving kiss!  My own, my own,

   Who camest to me when the world was gone,

   And I who looked for only God, found thee!

   I find thee; I am safe, and strong, and glad.

   As one who stands in dewless asphodel,

   Looks backward on the tedious time he had

   In the upper life,—so I, with bosom-swell,

   Make witness, here, between the good and bad,

   That Love, as strong as Death, retrieves as well.









XXVIII





   My letters! all dead paper, mute and white!

   And yet they seem alive and quivering

   Against my tremulous hands which loose the string

   And let them drop down on my knee to-night.

   This said,—he wished to have me in his sight

   Once, as a friend: this fixed a day in spring

   To come and touch my hand . . . a simple thing,

   Yet I wept for it!—this, . . . the paper’s light . . .

   Said, Dear I love thee; and I sank and quailed

   As if God’s future thundered on my past.

   This said, I am thine—and so its ink has paled

   With lying at my heart that beat too fast.

   And this . . . O Love, thy words have ill availed

   If, what this said, I dared repeat at last!









XXIX





   I think of thee!—my thoughts do twine and bud

   About thee, as wild vines, about a tree,

   Put out broad leaves, and soon there’s nought to see

   Except the straggling green which hides the wood.

   Yet, O my palm-tree, be it understood

   I will not have my thoughts instead of thee

   Who art dearer, better!  Rather, instantly

   Renew thy presence; as a strong tree should,

   Rustle thy boughs and set thy trunk all bare,

   And let these bands of greenery which insphere thee,

   Drop heavily down,—burst, shattered everywhere!

   Because, in this deep joy to see and hear thee

   And breathe within thy shadow a new air,

   I do not think of thee—I am too near thee.









XXX





   I see thine image through my tears to-night,

   And yet to-day I saw thee smiling.  How

   Refer the cause?—Belovëd, is it thou

   Or I, who makes me sad?  The acolyte

   Amid the chanted joy and thankful rite

   May so fall flat, with pale insensate brow,

   On the altar-stair.  I hear thy voice and vow,

   Perplexed, uncertain, since thou art out of sight,

   As he, in his swooning ears, the choir’s amen.

   Belovëd, dost thou love? or did I see all

   The glory as I dreamed, and fainted when

   Too vehement light dilated my ideal,

   For my soul’s eyes?  Will that light come again,

   As now these tears come—falling hot and real?









XXXI





   Thou comest! all is said without a word.

   I sit beneath thy looks, as children do

   In the noon-sun, with souls that tremble through

   Their happy eyelids from an unaverred

   Yet prodigal inward joy.  Behold, I erred

   In that last doubt! and yet I cannot rue

   The sin most, but the occasion—that we two

   Should for a moment stand unministered

   By a mutual presence.  Ah, keep near and close,

   Thou dove-like help! and when my fears would rise,

   With thy broad heart serenely interpose:

   Brood down with thy divine sufficiencies

   These thoughts which tremble when bereft of those,

   Like callow birds left desert to the skies.









XXXII





   The first time that the sun rose on thine oath

   To love me, I looked forward to the moon

   To slacken all those bonds which seemed too soon

   And quickly tied to make a lasting troth.

   Quick-loving hearts, I thought, may quickly loathe;

   And, looking on myself, I seemed not one

   For such man’s love!—more like an out-of-tune

   Worn viol, a good singer would be wroth

   To spoil his song with, and which, snatched in haste,

   Is laid down at the first ill-sounding note.

   I did not wrong myself so, but I placed

   A wrong on thee.  For perfect strains may float

   ’Neath master-hands, from instruments defaced,—

   And great souls, at one stroke, may do and doat.









XXXIII





   Yes, call me by my pet-name! let me hear

   The name I used to run at, when a child,

   From innocent play, and leave the cowslips plied,

   To glance up in some face that proved me dear

   With the look of its eyes.  I miss the clear

   Fond voices which, being drawn and reconciled

   Into the music of Heaven’s undefiled,

   Call me no longer.  Silence on the bier,

   While I call God—call God!—so let thy mouth

   Be heir to those who are now exanimate.

   Gather the north flowers to complete the south,

   And catch the early love up in the late.

   Yes, call me by that name,—and I, in truth,

   With the same heart, will answer and not wait.









XXXIV





   With the same heart, I said, I’ll answer thee

   As those, when thou shalt call me by my name—

   Lo, the vain promise! is the same, the same,

   Perplexed and ruffled by life’s strategy?

   When called before, I told how hastily

   I dropped my flowers or brake off from a game.

   To run and answer with the smile that came

   At play last moment, and went on with me

   Through my obedience.  When I answer now,

   I drop a grave thought, break from solitude;

   Yet still my heart goes to thee—ponder how—

   Not as to a single good, but all my good!

   Lay thy hand on it, best one, and allow

   That no child’s foot could run fast as this blood.









XXXV





   If I leave all for thee, wilt thou exchange

   And be all to me?  Shall I never miss

   Home-talk and blessing and the common kiss

   That comes to each in turn, nor count it strange,

   When I look up, to drop on a new range

   Of walls and floors, another home than this?

   Nay, wilt thou fill that place by me which is

   Filled by dead eyes too tender to know change

   That’s hardest.  If to conquer love, has tried,

   To conquer grief, tries more, as all things prove,

   For grief indeed is love and grief beside.

   Alas, I have grieved so I am hard to love.

   Yet love me—wilt thou?  Open thy heart wide,

   And fold within, the wet wings of thy dove.









XXXVI





   When we met first and loved, I did not build

   Upon the event with marble.  Could it mean

   To last, a love set pendulous between

   Sorrow and sorrow?  Nay, I rather thrilled,

   Distrusting every light that seemed to gild

   The onward path, and feared to overlean

   A finger even.  And, though I have grown serene

   And strong since then, I think that God has willed

   A still renewable fear . . . O love, O troth . . .

   Lest these enclaspëd hands should never hold,

   This mutual kiss drop down between us both

   As an unowned thing, once the lips being cold.

   And Love, be false! if he, to keep one oath,

   Must lose one joy, by his life’s star foretold.









XXXVII





   Pardon, oh, pardon, that my soul should make

   Of all that strong divineness which I know

   For thine and thee, an image only so

   Formed of the sand, and fit to shift and break.

   It is that distant years which did not take

   Thy sovranty, recoiling with a blow,

   Have forced my swimming brain to undergo

   Their doubt and dread, and blindly to forsake

   Thy purity of likeness and distort

   Thy worthiest love to a worthless counterfeit.

   As if a shipwrecked Pagan, safe in port,

   His guardian sea-god to commemorate,

   Should set a sculptured porpoise, gills a-snort

   And vibrant tail, within the temple-gate.









XXXVIII





   First time he kissed me, he but only kissed

   The fingers of this hand wherewith I write;

   And ever since, it grew more clean and white.

   Slow to world-greetings, quick with its “O, list,”

   When the angels speak.  A ring of amethyst

   I could not wear here, plainer to my sight,

   Than that first kiss.  The second passed in height

   The first, and sought the forehead, and half missed,

   Half falling on the hair.  O beyond meed!

   That was the chrism of love, which love’s own crown,

   With sanctifying sweetness, did precede

   The third upon my lips was folded down

   In perfect, purple state; since when, indeed,

   I have been proud and said, “My love, my own.”









XXXIX





   Because thou hast the power and own’st the grace

   To look through and behind this mask of me,

   (Against which, years have beat thus blanchingly,

   With their rains,) and behold my soul’s true face,

   The dim and weary witness of life’s race,—

   Because thou hast the faith and love to see,

   Through that same soul’s distracting lethargy,

   The patient angel waiting for a place

   In the new Heavens,—because nor sin nor woe,

   Nor God’s infliction, nor death’s neighbourhood,

   Nor all which others viewing, turn to go,

   Nor all which makes me tired of all, self-viewed,—

   Nothing repels thee, . . . Dearest, teach me so

   To pour out gratitude, as thou dost, good!









XL





   Oh, yes! they love through all this world of ours!

   I will not gainsay love, called love forsooth:

   I have heard love talked in my early youth,

   And since, not so long back but that the flowers

   Then gathered, smell still.  Mussulmans and Giaours

   Throw kerchiefs at a smile, and have no ruth

   For any weeping.  Polypheme’s white tooth

   Slips on the nut if, after frequent showers,

   The shell is over-smooth,—and not so much

   Will turn the thing called love, aside to hate

   Or else to oblivion.  But thou art not such

   A lover, my Belovëd! thou canst wait

   Through sorrow and sickness, to bring souls to touch,

   And think it soon when others cry “Too late.”









XLI





   I thank all who have loved me in their hearts,

   With thanks and love from mine.  Deep thanks to all

   Who paused a little near the prison-wall

   To hear my music in its louder parts

   Ere they went onward, each one to the mart’s

   Or temple’s occupation, beyond call.

   But thou, who, in my voice’s sink and fall

   When the sob took it, thy divinest Art’s

   Own instrument didst drop down at thy foot

   To harken what I said between my tears, . . .

   Instruct me how to thank thee!  Oh, to shoot

   My soul’s full meaning into future years,

   That they should lend it utterance, and salute

   Love that endures, from life that disappears!









XLII





   My future will not copy fair my past—

   I wrote that once; and thinking at my side

   My ministering life-angel justified

   The word by his appealing look upcast

   To the white throne of God, I turned at last,

   And there, instead, saw thee, not unallied

   To angels in thy soul!  Then I, long tried

   By natural ills, received the comfort fast,

   While budding, at thy sight, my pilgrim’s staff

   Gave out green leaves with morning dews impearled.

   I seek no copy now of life’s first half:

   Leave here the pages with long musing curled,

   And write me new my future’s epigraph,

   New angel mine, unhoped for in the world!









XLIII





   How do I love thee?  Let me count the ways.

   I love thee to the depth and breadth and height

   My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight

   For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.

   I love thee to the level of everyday’s

   Most quiet need, by sun and candlelight.

   I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;

   I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.

   I love thee with the passion put to use

   In my old griefs, and with my childhood’s faith.

   I love thee with a love I seemed to lose

   With my lost saints,—I love thee with the breath,

   Smiles, tears, of all my life!—and, if God choose,

   I shall but love thee better after death.









XLIV





   Belovëd, thou hast brought me many flowers

   Plucked in the garden, all the summer through,

   And winter, and it seemed as if they grew

   In this close room, nor missed the sun and showers.

   So, in the like name of that love of ours,

   Take back these thoughts which here unfolded too,

   And which on warm and cold days I withdrew

   From my heart’s ground.  Indeed, those beds and bowers

   Be overgrown with bitter weeds and rue,

   And wait thy weeding; yet here’s eglantine,

   Here’s ivy!—take them, as I used to do

   Thy flowers, and keep them where they shall not pine.

   Instruct thine eyes to keep their colours true,

   And tell thy soul, their roots are left in mine.